Thoughts of a Swan: Is death really deathless?

The thoughts of a Swan bring you the question of whether death is really deathless?

We’re drugged the second we come out of our mother’s womb. Our first breath is our drug to life and like any other drug brings us a breath closer to death.

We cannot live without the drug “oxygen,” and it takes us a step closer to our deaths.

It gives us life and then sudden death, makes us grateful when we breathe it in but also tortures us with the looming uncertainty when we exhale it out. Tortures us by giving us life and then taking it away at any given second.

We realize that we’re going to die sooner or later, yet continue to live just to die.

Death is always as close to us as life, but life is temporary, and death is eternal.

The day we stop breathing is the day we die but is death really deathless since we don’t know what’s to come?

The day we die, do we really die? Or do we kill those around us?

Is death less painful than life?

We’re told that we’d either go to heaven or hell but what exactly is heaven and hell?

Why is heaven thought to be so beautiful and hell so terrifying? Does our soul really go to either? Or does our death mark the beginning of our life after death, and does it take us to heaven or hell?

Do the memories we leave behind really become our heaven/hell?

The good memories we leave in the minds of the people we knew and loved, would their thoughts and prayers and time remembering how we changed their lives become our heaven after death?

Do the bad memories or terrible things we did and said to people become our hell after death? Do the tears we made them shed really damn us to hell? The hell of the bad memories we left them with?

After taking our last breath, do we get haunted by the memories we left with those around us?

Would the good memories shown to us after death really be our heaven, and all the bad we did be shown to us forever to live in the hell that we had created for others?

What makes us do good and bad since everyone is going to die one day? Our consciousness apart from religion and law tells us to be good, but why?

Why does seeing others happy makes us happy and leaves some of us envious?

They say we carve our own lives and would either do good and go to heaven, the heaven of the memories we left, and do bad and go to hell, the same hell of memories we created for others.

Would we be punished with fire for making others cry? What would that fire be? Would that literally be a flame, and would it actually hurt since our bodies along with the feeling of physical pain would no longer exist?

Or would mental pain be inflicted upon us? Showing what we did and reminding us for all of eternity?

Forcing us to watch and relive the time again and again when we broke someone’s heart, when we screamed at our parents, friends and family, when we thought and wished bad for someone, when we inflicted physical pain, when we were envious, and when we left the World and gave immense pain to those close to us?

Since we sin by breathing (by taking a drug), since we sin throughout our lives and even sin while dying, do we really go to heaven? Does a heaven even exist?

Or do we live a painful but deathless death to escape our living hell?

~ Swan